one of the most memorable compliments I’ve received is that when I talk, people listen. I only really enjoy sharing things if I think it’s worth it. I mean yes I think I am worthy and my thoughts are important (rolls eyes and uses air quotes in a mocking tone) but also not everything is meant to be said out loud and I like processing in my brain before I put things out in the world. Whether it’s inserting a simple comment in a casual conversation or sharing my stance on the most controversial subject. I truly am not a yapper (though my mom and my husband would disagree). that said, I do appreciate that people can sense I’ve given things thought before I share them. and by people I mean the 2 or 3 people in my lifetime that have given me the aforementioned compliment.
being thoughtful sometimes goes hand and hand with overthinking. and man, have I been thinking 😬 I wrapped up a residency last month and as part of that, I focused on living life offline so I took an intentional break from scrolling and posting. I don’t like noise and I don’t like clutter and that’s what social media feels like these days. but I want to post bc what I do is my art and posting is my practice…but WAIT is posting the practice?? or is it writing and filming and then being selective about what makes the cut? I do need consistency for the sake of accountability. I need to give myself deadlines, I need to have a system. but the world of social media will convince you consistency means publicly posting a short film every single day. like be fr? not everything is for mass consumption. sometimes my thoughts are chaotic and not in its most eloquent state so am I ruining the very reputation I just said im so proud of if I share things prematurely? does this go against my entire personality of only speaking when I have something worth saying?
anyway, I went through so many transitions at the top of this year. I had the most random injury in january, been balancing a new day job while also doing my first ever residency and soooo many other things. highs, lows and all the things that make life worth living. but im refocusing and figuring out what I want to do and how I want to do it. I have so many IDEAS. I have the space to execute. time. space. PACE. all the things I prayed for are here and by God’s grace your girl will not fumble the ball. I have no idea what I’m doing but im doing it. I have so many fun things coming up that I will share in the very near future!! yall will start getting more regular newsletters from me centered around newsworthy bites I’ve had lately. (did yall notice I just sent a newsletter last week and again this week? ok consistency!) I’ll talk to yall again next week. below is a random photo from a recent late night ice cream run because I can’t send an update without some mention of good eats. have a blessed week <3
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kids size maryland mud + horchata ice cream. the charmery. 21:56